Dochtersions: Hello everybody! Under the name "dochtersions" I started, at the suggestion of my dear husband, in sharing my photos, fractals, and also some paintings, and other 2D art here at Renderosity. That was in January of 2010. I still use my two owls as avatar, which is a reduced image of one of my oil paintings.
The name "dochtersions" came into my head as only one, when I was looking for a name for my blog that I started in 2007.
This name is not that strange, as I know that God is my real father and mother at the same time, and I know that God loves me more and deeper than a man can aware of (or at least I think this way)
I live in the South of The Netherlands together with my retired husband. I've had various occupations. In my last job, I was working as an assistant to a paediatrician and a rehabilitation specialist. When I had children, I graduated "health awareness", and gave lectures on various topics, plus vegetarian cooking classes to teenagers.
My husband and I have together two daughters and four grandchildren. Which all live abroad, to be precise in Lacey (WA-USA) and Davos in Switzerland.
I've always been busy with all kinds of creativity. As a child I drew a lot, later pottery, needle art, tapestries, weaving, batik art, macramé, etc. Painting with oil was my last great hobby.
Around about the year 2000 I started having unexplained physical symptoms as well as insomnia, which was later diagnosed as having PTSD. It turned out that I had repressed a traumatized youth. However, the physical symptoms made that I no longer could be busy with my passions, the real painting, and other activities (f.e. reading books, gardening, travelling), which I was doing without a limit.
What I can stay doing well in limited form, is playing music on my mandolin and my guitar, and also to enjoy/listen my favourite music, which is including the cantatas of J.S. Bach and his sons , f.e. also music from G.F. Handel, G.Ph. Telemann, a.s.o. This is also the kind of music that my husband (on its church organ) and I (on my mandolin) play together.
After being diagnosed with PTSD a lot changed and I was forced to look for alternatives in which I could express myself. That is, that for years I started writing, and poetry, which go quite intense and as a sort of automatic. Unfortunately, my knowledge of the English language is not sufficient enough, so I write in my mother tongue, with sometimes a few exceptions. The thoughts come to my mind right at unexpected moments, and it’s wonderful, to surrendering to your train of thoughts.
In the encounter more and more of impossibilities, in connection with, f.e continuous pains, I learned to shift my gaze. Searching for distractions and alternatives, I learned to focus my happy mind on all the wonderful and admirable little things in the world around me.
My husband since 1968 Karel (kareldg on RR) bought a small pocket camera for me, and taught me to work with Fractal Explorer. Through my little Sony camera I learned to look differently, to see deeper; to see the details, the structure, how refined, and just so unique the small ones are in God's creation.
What is one of my daily tasks is trying to support people who suffer from PTSD, but they suffer more in an emotional way, and I can understand them and listen to their story (digital) they trust me.
Renderosity: What projects are you currently working on?
Dochtersions: Of course I would love to take more concrete technical knowledge to me (to acquire), and follow tutorials, how to work with Ultra Fractal, Mandelbulb, etc.. The capabilities of PSP investigate and experiment with it.
The manual of my current camera (Canon PowerShot SX50HS, and as pocket camera Panasonic DMC-TZ35, since 2020 I use a Canon PowerShot SX70HS). I would like to sift through, and experiment with it. But exactly that kind of things, such as reading comprehension, concentration, makes this especially, by the constant dominating intense facial pain, really impossible.
All in all, I continue to look for improvement, while in the meantime trying to be light-hearted, happy and hopeful, to be open to everything that's coming my way. I enjoy art, stay in the nature, the outer man/woman in me, the love that I've been given, to realize this, and to be thankful for. Wherever I am happy with is that I am able to meet so many lovely people through RR. Unfortunately, only digital, but I'm also grateful.
Comments (7)
kepp
lovely image
dochtersions
Thank you very much!
APlusDesign
This is very pretty! Love the feeling of light and colour in this
dochtersions
Thank you very much, my friend.
starship64
This is lovely work.
dochtersions
Thank you, Joe.
anahata.c
A beautiful, mystical poem, Jacomina. I looked up most of the words in Dutch, so I could understand the poem better. I'm continually impressed at how well you translate Dutch phrases into English. And, as you always do, you got some of the rhymes too.
From my amateur understanding of your Dutch, you speak of light being a mystical essence that's not easy to capture, conceive, grab, 'see' (if I'm correct, 'op te vatten' means something like: "to conceive"---I found "opvatten," so I figured that "op te vatten" had a similar meaning. In other words, light is something so real, yet so hard to "put our hands on"...it's mystical, ephemeral, yet it's so real.
The rays of ancient tales (oude verhalen) is a haunting image, as if ancestors from ages ago 'speak' to us through the light they left behind. (They speak to us through the auras they left behind. And maybe that light comes from higher sources too.) Your words conjure those images to me (beautiful). And, like the past speaking to us via light-rays, those rays mingle in the light-rays of today, creating a new light for today.
Then the last 4 lines (in Dutch): You've almost written a sonnet, because it's 14 lines, with the last four separated from the others. (That's in Dutch.) In English: "Let your light shine into the deepest deep"---"oneindig" is related to our "un-ending"...you're asking this mystical light to shine into our deepest, unending inner light, so it will dissolve the illusions and lies of life, and give us pure truth in its place. A pure truth we can walk in, as if that truth were a massive canopy above our heads, protecting us, keeping out the illusions and lies that are part of life.
In Dutch, lines 2 through 10 all end with an "a" sound in the final words: I don't know how each of these words sound---but it's amazing that they all have "-atten, -angen, stralen, -halen, vendaag, etc. And then in the last 4 lines, "schijnen/diep, verdwijnin/liep". I assume those lines rhyme perfectly. (You created rhyme in English, through 'deep' and 'keep'. It must be very hard to create rhymes in a second language. The only redeeming fact is that Dutch has similar roots to English (they're both Germanic languages.) Other than that, you really have to work at translation. I appreciate that very much.
The poem feels like a prayer for cleansing and truth-giving light to wash away the illusions and lies in our lives, and bless us with its pure radiance. And your fractal is like a gigantic flower, or a big 'bestowing beast' (an animal that gives grace). The 'hairs' on the creature are beautiful and lush...and it seems to be whirling light to us. The background feels like a primal dawn (darkness and light) where this bestowing creature awaits us. Together with your words, it's a very powerful upload. Mystical and powerful. Beautiful work, Jacomina.
I'll write to you soon. I hope you're doing ok with everything, and I wish you much healing and strength, and lots of light too. (And to Karel as well!) A blessed juni to you!
dochtersions
You put so much effort, Mark, to take the poem even through the Dutch language. How much work must that have been, really incredible and so special. And then I would love to talk to you about this, sorting out and philosophizing about how difficult the Dutch language is with the amount of expressions and the many meanings of 1 and the same word.
I like this to play with that, for me it is a wealth, also to incorporate some kind of jokes in it or a hint to something else.
Mark, I'm really impressed by all your reactions, but in particular of this one. You are amazing and unique, my friend. Hoping your health is much better by now,, and don't worry about an email to me, I still have several emails from you to which I would like to respond.
In that respect I'm slower than a snail, I'm so in my head that time is slipping out of my hands. I will send you many blessings for all your days, from early morning to the evening.(in Dutch: van de vroege morgen tot de avondstond) Lol, that avondstond, oh, it's such a challenge to continue with that word in poet shape, such a shame that so many different languages have emerged. Although, every language has its own charm, haha, at least if you use it in the right way. For example, not as a certain 'elephant' uses the language. :D
btw. the world these days have a lot more 'elephants', it looks like that it's in fashion.