A Building Downtown (in memory of my mother) by Desgar
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"If you were here I would tell you the things I never said, but I know if you were here I could not tell them to you." - Giulband, I Have Written Books with the Words Never Said
I took this picture back in March of this year. My mother was at Northwestern Hospital for observation. This was from her room.
She passed away yesterday morning. She had been at a nursing home for almost eight months due to dementia. She was never happy there, and she couldn't eat much of the food due to her single tooth. I tried to give her emotional support, but I was under a lot of stress from my job and life in general. I kept myself to visiting her once a week, and calling her about every two days.
I last saw her alive Tuesday December 5th. She was moving around slow, but I assumed it was just due to inactivity (she was reluctant to leave her room unless she wanted to call me from the nurses' desk).
Yesterday (Saturday December 9th), I was in bed while working on a render when I got a call from the home. When the RN said "I have some sad news.
Your mother passed away this morning" I completely lost it.
She was in her late eighties. Still, I thought I still had time to see her. I thought I still had time to learn about her life and about me and my siblings. I thought I had time to see her find some glimmer of joy, despite her feeling of being somewhere she didn't belong.
Until, time ran out. And God called her Home.
Spend time with your families. Nothing's for granted. Ever.
Comments (9)
Faemike55
I know what you are going through and I feel the pain of your loss. It is hard to lose someone close to you. You look back and tell yourself 'I should have done this more often or I could have told them I love them more' I know this because I was in your place a year and a half ago when my dad was killed in an auto accident. I can tell you this, it will get better! It will be slow and painful at times, but it does get better. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Take care of yourself and your family! be the willow that bends but does not break in the storm.
beautiful photo
thekingtut
I'm very sorry to hear of her passing. No one knows how long we have, so we need to make the most of our time together. My mother passed suddenly eighteen years ago, and no one was expecting it. At least you were near.
goldie
Losing someone you love is probably the most difficult event one faces in their life...There are those that say time heals, etc. I don't see it that way, it's just that we have a special place in our psyche where we store these events and take them out to ponder until it becomes too painful and we place them back into their respective slots...moving on with our daily lives. I am in my 70s and have lost many dear and near to me...Even when one is able to smile in remembrance, it never gets easier--the pain and loss is always there. So, yes one should not take for granted that everyone you love and care about will be around tomorrow...Show them today that you love and cherish them, because tomorrow may be too late. Even though your mom did not like her situation, I am certain she appreciated what you were able to do for her...don't be too hard on yourself for not anticipating that she would pass when she did...missed opportunities, yes, but that the way life rolls...
Richardphotos
I can relate to your feelings about your loss of your mother. my mother was in a rest home because she could not care for herself. it was a 500 mile round trip to visit her. after she died, I wished I had taken more trips to visit with her. the good thing was my sister just lived 3 blocks from the facility and she visited everyday.
the church has beautiful architecture. my condolences for your loss
eekdog
I can only imagine what your going through, Wes. My mom is 82 and doing ok do far. I have you in thoughts and prayers. A marvelous thought and dedi for your dear sweetest mother.
RodS
I share some tears with you, brother... I know your pain, as my father's last few months was almost exactly the same as your mom's. Like you, I could only visit once a week as well - same circumstances. There never seems to be enough time..
My prayers and thoughts are with you, Wes. We can take some solace in knowing those we've loved and lost will no longer suffer, and will always live in our hearts until that day we are rejoined. May peace and comfort find its way to you.
blinkings
I've been through it with both my parents.......my condolences friend. Take care of yourself. Andrew.
beachsidelegs
So sorry to hear this very sad news my friend we lost our father on the 2nd November he was 79 so I really do know how you must be feeling my thoughts are with you at this very sad time.
anitalee
So sorry for your loss