Brutally Honest by HopeFadesEternal
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One thing I have learned to do is to be honest with myself. You do yourself no good if you don't. I also learned that you should be able to laugh at yourself, or about your situation too.
Well, virtually everyday I hear an ad on the radio that starts with a woman asking: "Mirror, mirror, How did I get so fat?"
Well.... I had run into that sort of situation myself. I didn't necessarily see it coming at first, or maybe I was in denial, but suddenly there it was!
Certainly I had indications this was taking place every time the seasons changed from warm to cold and things didn't fit like they had when I last wore them, but I don't think I honestly seen it in the mirror for some time. It's not like I sat there staring at myself in mirror either. Nobody seemed to mention as well..... Probably out of fear. After all, there are some areas where even angels fear to tread, and telling a woman that it looks like she has put on weight is most likely one of them.
Anyway, I make no real excuses for these "changes." I have responsibility over what I eat and my activity levels. I can say that having back problems and the limitations I have caused this, It was the stress of my job, or it is middle age which is to blame; but more likely the decision to order an appetizer when we went to dinner; or worse yet, dessert is at fault. I can blame the holidays, I can also blame myself for eating the leftover Halloween candy or Christmas cookies.... Chicken wings.... Pizza.... Donuts at work....
We even had gym memberships for a year, but when I hurt my shoulder we stopped going. I could have still walked on the treadmill, or done something else; but instead stayed home because it was winter and I was tired.
So, I hear this commercial on the radio now, and laugh. I often say to myself, you didn't put down the fork. You ordered fries with that meal. You didn't need the desert.
I learned that even though I may not like a situation, if I cannot change it at the moment, I must accept it and deal with it. I think that is an important thing for us all to be able to do. I also learned that when you find yourself in similar situations where you just didn't see what should have been obvious coming, laugh it off. Being mad at yourself gets you nowhere. Besides, some things aren't as bad as we imagine them, or make them out to be.
Thanks you for viewing. Hope you all had a good day. TGIF!
Comments (8)
MrGorf
Well, all I can say about this is, "Don't worry, be happy!"
Faemike55
I understand where you are coming from on weight gain - a while back I saw that my waist was increasing at an astonishing rate (6 inches in less than a year) and I said WHAT? actually it was WTF? It has taken me a while to get down to what I think is an acceptable (barely) weight and waist, but still... I wish you success in any endeavor you pursue. ps I've since learned that denial is a river in Egypt...LOL
NetWorthy
Forget the weight, that's not really the issue: I bet there are people who love you just as you are. The real issue is your health, and I definitely DO NOT mean the "skeletal" condition some people (including doctors) think is "healthy." What I'm saying is you can be OK with how you look, but decide if you need to do something (exercise, diet, whatever) to really be healthy - after all, those same people who love you as you are probably want you to be around a LOOOONG time. Right? I really like your images and the accompanying text - there's a lot of heart in both places.
HopeFadesEternal
Thank you for the comment. There's a lot of good ones for this composition. Yes, healthy is one thing to strive for. My biggest problems are mainly my back, and it can be quite limiting at times on what I can/cannot do. I don't have a very physically demanding job either, but on busy days the ability to do much after I get back home can be virtually nil. I will say though, I felt quite good when I was going to the gym, but fear my spine has deteriorated some in the past year too, so going back might not be the best idea without the approval of my doctors. Thankfully I am also very tall (6 ft, which runs on one side of the family, one of my sisters is also 5' 10") so I hide it well. Hubby doesn't have a problem with it either(claiming he hadn't "really" noticed.....I suggest that area even angels fear going in original posting). That being said, if I went down to where the doctor wants me to be, I'd look sickly; I had been that weight in my early 20's and I looked like a broom handle.
krickerd
Good job capturing the emotion on her face. Yes it seems like the never ending battle. Finding motivation is a challenge. 6 months ago I was gaining in strength and had a ton of energy from nearly daily practice of body weight exercises at home. When I left my job and moved in with my GF I lost momentum and now it is just HARD to get it back. So I'm putting on size and weight as well. It helps having someone who inspires you. David Wolfe or Matt Furey perhaps?
Raages
Emotions are strange and difficult to express, you did it very good.
Cyve
Fabulous and marvelous character ... Fantastic posing also. Outstandingly done my friend!
pimanjc
Excellent artwork as usual. I sympathise with your sentiments completely. Been there, done that [except for the being a woman part]. Good news is at my last physical, I had lost 11 lbs. Bad news, weight loss is because I had been sick for a week.
goodoleboy
Excellent image and a honest somber reflective narration in this one. Actually, if this art is any indication, you don't look that fat to me. I've seen a lot worse at Walmart. But at this juncture, all I can say is get plenty of exercise and stop eating, I mean everything. Water is okay. I have a bad back (sciatica, stenosis and scoliosis) and, even with the aid of a podiatrist, also a bad ankle, which is very painful at each step, but I keep on trekking, no matter the pain. Oh, add to that a bad shoulder. I'm too old for surgery, so there you go.
HopeFadesEternal
Ah yes, the infamous Wallyworld people. I can sympathize with your situation too. I too have shoulder issues, and passed on surgery years ago as I knew too many people who weren't helped by it. Since then I've had one spinal surgery and have been fortunate enough to not require the two others the surgeon estimated I would be needing by now. I think my time is quickly running out though. I feel for you with the ankle though. Between the back and the shoulders, it's more than enough; you at least would like to have a little bit of ease in getting around during the day. Make sure you have some good shoes and watch your step.