The feeling of being alone in the dark- not the physical sense of being by oneself- but the sense of something known only to myself and one other person is my greatest fear of being alone in the dark. What started as a beautiful friendship quickly morphed into a nightmare when the lines were drawn and crossed one spring day.We'd been friends for several years working sided by side everyday. He was married and so was I-but not to each other. I let my heart lead me in a direction it never should have gone. In a flash everything changed and our once firm friendship fondation was now on shaky ground, He still calls me his friend- but am I really? We shared the most intimate moments that two people can share. I opened up my soul to him- and now I am lost without him. How I wish this had never happened and we could turn back time. I am sure he also feels this to a certain extent- being alone in the dark- those moments when he is alone with only his thoughts to keep him company. How do I cope with my feelings of being alone? I cry and scream when no one else can hear me until I am so drained I can do this no more and finally fall asleep. When morning light comes, I get up, put on my best smile to hide the deep seated pain that lingers in my fractured heart and face a new day working beside him at our jobs, exchanging good morning hellos and little else for the rest of the workday. He sill calls me his friend when talking to others-How can you be friends again? So I sit here tonight at the onset of another long night alone in the dark, waiting for the dawn. In hopes that my prayers will be answered one day. God can you help me????