Longing by kftate
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No AI - This artwork was created entirely by hand or with traditional digital tools.
Description
Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell. ~Edna St Vincent Millay
Normally, I consider myself a pretty positive, strong person. I don't normally wallow in the past, and I try to look for the bright side in the present. Overall, my life is very happy. However, I had a really emotionally rough day yesterday. This image is what came from my funk.
I found myself longing. Longing for the days when my Dad was alive and healthy. Longing for the days when my Mother was healthy, vibrant, very active, and not in chronic pain. Longing for the days when my sister (my only sibling, to whom I thought I was very close) still spoke to her family of origin. I was longing for the days before she abdicated all responsibilities for everything but her own selfishness (including dropping 100% of any care for her one remaining elderly parent onto my shoulders, alone). Longing for the days when I could just talk to my sister and enjoy her company as my friend. She hasn't spoken to either me or our mother for over six months now, and no, I've never had any altercation with her at all. She simply yelled at my mother and stopped speaking to both of us. I guess I'm just "collateral damage" through no fault of my own. I miss her. Yesterday, my longing was great. However, today is another, much more positive day. :)
Created using Vue Complete 2015. No post work except signature.
Credits:
Cemetery - Gaetan Blanchette

Comments (16)
Beyond breathtaking!! Love the atmo.
Very Gorgeous Scene!!! and we all long to be with the past, but we know we have to live the Now and hope for the future!!!
Fantastic sky above this superb landscape, splendid colors, great work!
Life is not always easy, even with those we love. In that moments, we must keep the hope that better days are possible ....
Life is not always easy........ The sky is beautiful and sign of hope, I like the color of your quiet scene , wonderful image !
What a beautiful view and mood,love the colors and sky:))***********
Wow - what you are feeling really came through in this image - just awesome!!! (really admire your outlook on the situation!)
Spectacular scene and sky. Great colors. Sorry for the family drama. Maybe she's gotten scared and does not know how to address her mother's ailments. Some people run when they don't know what to do. Obviously I don't know your situation, but maybe in time she'll be able to listen and talk again. I hope so, she may not forgive herself for not speaking when your mom passes (hopefully a long time from now).
Lovely VUE work. Absolutely beautiful!!!! The words are so true of the human spirit and the pain we will feel at some points in our life. I think it is about learning but then I can only hope there is a good reason for a bad feeling.
WOW... What a marvelous image my friend... Outstandingly done once again !!!
beautiful sky, splendid mood here at sunset !!! Life isn't a smooth sailing !!! take care of you !!!
Wow! What a sky! Great lighting...great render!
Excellent work. Moody and beautiful at the same time.
Excellent!
Wonderful work!
Very intense feelings in your words , many of that c are well represnted in this introspective image !!