...but if you don't know me, you don't know that my body is ill, and though I will not die from this, there is no cure. I live with pain and I am unable to eat normally, function normally...but I do my best to be happy, treasure the good times and create magic now and then....
I saw this image in my head, when I realized...again...that I need to be my true and honest self. I have been working lately to ACCEPT my illness, and to live better in spite of it all...
To be honest I am still grieving for the loss of my physical ability to create 3-D mesh models and textures for my online store. My shoulders have gotten to the point where if I try to do that type of work I will lose the limited range of motion that I have left, and I would no longer be able to even do the "fun art" that I want to do as well as visit the online communities, do research, and communicate with friends.
I am still trying to get to the point of acceptance and to be able to say: I am so grateful for even HAVING the years in the creative/commercial world at all...that I have a TREASURE of memories of good times; dear friends that I learned from, laughed with - who were/ARE such a huge part of my art life!
Bloodsong was primary in teaching me to "Morph"... with amazing patients dealing with my dyslexic confusion, and persevering with helping me grasp the fundamentals of morphing...which led to my self taught modeling/mapping.....which led to my store...which led to the kindness and generosity of Debra Ross, who joined our store for a while, working with me on all my morph projects of her delightful models, as well as the other great artists who still sell through the store....(I just continue to do product support for my store)
I HAVE gained more than I have lost: FRIENDS that are so precious to me - friends that I never would have met if I had not found my way to this amazing community! So now I will endeavor, as my health allows, to ENJOY and finally USE all the wonderful products I have accumulated over the years and never had the TIME to use, while working on my store products!
Art Credits: A3- Faeryl by Sarsa & Thorn (RMP) wearing Elf Dance: Enchanted by SWAM & goldtassel, texture set by renapd (RMP)... FK Designs De Ja Vue hair (3DC). Pose & Expression came with Elf Dance, modified by me. Fireflies by Noggin (DAZ) Ultimate Tree by Kromekat (RMP, not available anymore) darkened in poser to match the DAZ Environment. Grass added post. Poser 6.3 and photoshop.
Jan 27, 2007 10:42:08 pmby Niha Homepage »
I am so sorry to hear of your loss, but you have a positive attitude which is wonderful! I applaud you for that! This is a beautiful image! I love her pose! Always be true to yourself as you are the one who really matters.. Take care of your wellbeing and we are just happy you can still come and keep in touch with all your friends here in this community. Please take care of yourself and keep in touch!!! You are in my thoughts and prayers. Anytime you need to talk you can talk to me! Feel free to email or whatever you can do anytime.
Jan 28, 2007 4:45:28 amby lwperkins Homepage »
I'm glad you can still enjoy the good days! Both Mom and a vet friend have had bouts with fibromyalgia, my vet friends' dramatically declined when she was treated for thyroid cancer, which makes me think some are thyroid related (Mom has had thyroid problems too). I'm glad you are using the voice software to type, too! This is a lovely image--and I can't tell you how much joy your models have given me, I'm so grateful to have them! Thank you so much for making them, and doing such gorgeous art and sharing it!
Jan 28, 2007 7:54:42 amby Irish Homepage »
You are a very sweet Lady Lyne, and I hope you will have more good days than bad so you can enjoy life as you really wish to. I think you must reach the stage where you finally realize that everything happens for a reason.
An absolutely gorgeous, enchanting scene!!!
Jan 28, 2007 11:54:41 amby ToniDunlap Homepage »
Oh Lyne, Your render is so pretty. Pretty just like you. Again dear friend, you are teaching me something not just about art, but life and illness. I remember your giving me my first art lesson and I remain grateful. And now with your words above, I will follow your lead and be grateful for the art that I've been able to accomplish in the past, and work as I am able to create more now and in the future. It seems that after my husband passed away, (it's been one year now), I developed a very severe case of Rheumatoid Arthritis. Crippling almost. This after not having any serious illness in my entire 70 years. No Ronald and arthritis to boot. 'Tis truly a trip. However Sweet Friend, seeing this beautiful render and reading your words inspired me to try anew. So that is just what I am going to do. Watch for me okay? Watch and know that you made Toni try. Be as well and as happy as possible Lyne. I will hold you in my morning and evening prayers. Nam Myoho Renge Kyo. Toni
Jan 28, 2007 7:27:59 pmby bob4artist Homepage »
Sorry to hear that your shoulders are getting worse. Don't push yourself to hard. You need to take care of yourself. Remember that art takes place in the heart and the mind of the artist. The images are only a way of sharing it.
Nice image. Thanks for sharing - Bob
Jan 28, 2007 10:20:13 pmby BountifulKnight Homepage »
True art. The truth of artistic expression is in the heart behind the work and this has such a dept of heart. It does my heart good to know how you are growing in your acceptance of the life you have, but it does me even more good knowing that you are sharing your life with us. God bless you Lyne.