Poems 9: "Balance Of My Day" Beta Version by gallimel
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No AI - This artwork was created entirely by hand or with traditional digital tools.
Description
*It's here again:
the day devoted to all my scaring doubts,
the day when everything has the shape
of a misleadin demon ready to eat me out.
It's here, and I do tremble on my unstable legs,
I'd rather pass today like corpse in my own bed...
But I have to move,
even if I have no idea how to surface
out from my fears,
out of my mistrusts.
The door of this room is like the end of a tunnel,
an eye of black cat with just dim light out of its pupil:
but I do wanna fight
and reach my balance back...
I know I'm maybe falling,
but there's no other way round there.
For all I wanna say,
for all I wanna be
there are 1 million more
of days just like this:
but for all I wanna say,
and for all I wanna be,
there's just one choice to take,
and it's to fight the fear.*
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Photoshop, 4 layers, 1 hour work from these sources of mine.
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When I firstly created the image for "Balance Of My Day" I tried to find a model for the idea I had in mind to illustrate it, but nothing seemed to fit the plan as I would have loved so I just decided to draw in photoshop,this image you can see here as alpha version.
But this poem was too personal to let an unpersonal image fits the memory I still have of "those kind of bad days". And so I created again a Beta version of the image, that I present you now.
It's what I had in mind since the start for this poem. I think it's an image that stays within my head since 96, when I actually wrote that poem. Now I think fears have definitely faded out.
But no one can really predict the future, so this image stays as image of what I don't wanna feel like anymore.
Enjoy ;)

Comments (117)
Again, when you post your old poems, I am so glad you feel otherwise nowadays. I recognize the feelings you had, had them myself long ago, but like you I am a fighter. I love when you bring these old moods alive with fresh images, it is a way to honor your way through life, of it's shaping you to the person you are today. Love your collage, beta version or not, fits your poem so well. Hugs!!
it really transmits a sense of discomfort! very expressive! :)
an expressive artwork. wonderful composition and dynamic. !!!!!!!!! #:O) !!!!!!!!
Very beautiful Photoshop work :-) The rock textures rule. I like your various expressive poses...esp. the one in the forefront. You look ready to kick some ass there....as your cool poem indicates. I hope your day is bright and happy. :-) -Peace
Fear Loneliness and Depression... The three horsemen of the emotional apocalypse... a while back I felt these three on my heels as well, I did a b&w series if you remember... It helped me stay ahead...... I feel you!
Very expressive picture and poem. Yes, one must fight to resist that downward pull of depression and hopelesness.
Beautiful and creative work, Meli!! Brava my dear!!
Very touching poetry. Hope you're feeling better now! You're ever so great!
My sweet Meli, u look so damn hot sexy on those shots!!! Sorry, but that's the first thing that came to my mind! And, to be honest, to me, ur words do not fit with this image! It doesn't invoke fear nor fight at all IMHO! On a contrary, this is a very luminous and playful image! But maybe I'm misinterpreting?? I love both the poem and the image though, I just think they don't go together! ;) Huge hugs sweet angel!
Excellent image and work! Bravo ;-)
Excellent piece of art, Meli! I love the collage very much as well as the written words on the image that add power to this image. Much hugz and kizzes, Tjeerd.
excellent composition, the image presented the feeling...cooler work, excellent meli, take care
An intriguing and emotional work, very much in your style, Meli. Wonderful creation of feelings poured onto screen of your PC. Love it.
A very superb composition. Must appreciate our vision..... I wish I had this much concentration.;)
super cool poem and image...great work
Meli I'm posting late...but was very sick....Love this one and the poem...Love you too...waiting for delta to zeta versions...
J'arrive bien tard, mais une tr excellente rlisation....VOTE
Awesome and compelling work, as always!!! vote
The inner soul of beauty and kindness can heal any pain you my dear friend can do the same as its within you, but it is often the case that when we are in the duldrums of our fears we can do some of our best work Hugz
Wonderful composition, very artistical mood... I always love your poems they are powerful and so well written ! Bravissimo, Meli !!!
A poem of anxiety...I do think that your image compliments it well. I like your dress-wear too!!! Excellent piece!
Beautiful and emotional work, your images and writing compliment each other perfectly.
VUEVUAUUUUU BELLISSIMO LO SFONDO GRANDE COMPOSIZIONE MOLTO INTERESSANTE L'IDEA STUPENDE LE TINTE. FANTASTICA LA FIGURA IN TRASPARENZA E LE TONALITA DEL COLORE BELLE LE POSE ED ANCHE LA FIGURA IN FONDO CHE E IN ATTESA O IMMERSA NEI SUOI PENSIERI VVV* EXCELLENT ARTWORK BRAVAAAAA SUPER COMPLIMENTS *BY
Beautifully, artistically and poignantly expressed- poetically and visually. Fear is so paralyzing and seems rooted in depression. I pray those days are gone..or at least few and far between..for you, dear Meli, and for all of us. The composition- perspective, color, texture, layering and lighting are superb.
Your work is always inspiring and just superb .Comes from life and the heart and with such feeling .Awesome work love
Fantastic emotional composition! Excellent done:))!!!
J'ai he de voir la version dinitive!!
very cool work and a super poem
A very good piece of work and a charming poem!!
I haven't been on for a few days and I am sorry I missed this one. I believe you are blossoming into a great artist and I am impressed and proud to see your works. Thanks