Poems 9: "Balance Of My Day" Beta Version by gallimel
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No AI - This artwork was created entirely by hand or with traditional digital tools.
Description
*It's here again:
the day devoted to all my scaring doubts,
the day when everything has the shape
of a misleadin demon ready to eat me out.
It's here, and I do tremble on my unstable legs,
I'd rather pass today like corpse in my own bed...
But I have to move,
even if I have no idea how to surface
out from my fears,
out of my mistrusts.
The door of this room is like the end of a tunnel,
an eye of black cat with just dim light out of its pupil:
but I do wanna fight
and reach my balance back...
I know I'm maybe falling,
but there's no other way round there.
For all I wanna say,
for all I wanna be
there are 1 million more
of days just like this:
but for all I wanna say,
and for all I wanna be,
there's just one choice to take,
and it's to fight the fear.*
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Photoshop, 4 layers, 1 hour work from these sources of mine.
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When I firstly created the image for "Balance Of My Day" I tried to find a model for the idea I had in mind to illustrate it, but nothing seemed to fit the plan as I would have loved so I just decided to draw in photoshop,this image you can see here as alpha version.
But this poem was too personal to let an unpersonal image fits the memory I still have of "those kind of bad days". And so I created again a Beta version of the image, that I present you now.
It's what I had in mind since the start for this poem. I think it's an image that stays within my head since 96, when I actually wrote that poem. Now I think fears have definitely faded out.
But no one can really predict the future, so this image stays as image of what I don't wanna feel like anymore.
Enjoy ;)

Comments (117)
meli, seems as if I've lost a bit the keen sense of this kind of poetry (that's age I guess...) - but the image gives an intense sketch of mood...
wow, you really nailed exactly how I've been feeling lately. Excellent work!
this is really touching...your words are so pure written with innermost feeling....and let me tell you this...you are a great model for your own art....your expression is so excellent....your soul is so pure...I wish there where more people just like you....touching, warm, and caring.......I am happy that you find your peace inside now....because each day is a day for joy...so make each day count....how hard this world can be.....xxxxx
Excellent work young Lady. The verse, the image work beautifully together.
You give so much of yourself. And it seems your'e winning the battle.
The image shows great dispare but there is always light at the end and this too shall pass. Excellent!
You do such a fantastic job of building an image to reflect your feelings, wonderful piece!!
Fantastic image !!! Excellent and Vote!!!
What a powerful combination of thoughts words and images. I don't know how you managed to create such a shift in mood from the originals...and although I am very fond of your alpha version, yes, the poem needs the strength of the 'obvious' personal links. Can I ask, did you alter the eyes?
That gives power to fight, however the way you placed visuals together with your wonderful words is again very urgently!!
Excellent use of colours and composition.. top notch work as usual honey!
Thanks for sharing your personal demons just as quickly as you share your love and joy. It it a fine reminder of the need to live all of life fully, the good and the bad.
WOW Meli .... it's great composition as always... Marvellous idea and I love this one... VOTE
Wodnerfully Done!
The picture and the text expresses a lot of fear and anxiety. I truly hope you are out of it - and think it is great when you as artist can get all your feelings into your art. You seem to have succeeded so well .. I bet that is also what has helped you a lot. Very well done composition - truly Exeptional work !
Magnificent work of art, Meli!!! Beautifully composed and full of emotion!!
...as Dylan would have said: "Sometimes I'm in the mood I wanna back up against the wall Sometimes I'm in the mood, I wanna run till I have to crawl Sometimes I'm in the mood, I ain't gonna do nothing at all But then again, I said oh, oh babe I'm in the mood for you."
as always, an eye for composition and a heart for context. Lovely work, w00t
Very creative and very lovely! This is a beautiful image and a wonderfully composed!! Excellent! :)
Like wearing your emotions on your sleve - Nice compo !
Porca la pupazza ti sarai mica svegliata cosn? ahahha! Ho appena mangiato la pizza, sono satolla come non pochi, arrivo qui e leggo la parola BALANCE... mi venuto un senso di colpa incredibile! ahahha ;))) Bella composizione stellina, forte nelle emozioni..... spero che non sia cos!! Un abbraccione-mega-one!
Many years ago I was taught not to fight. I was beaten for getting beat up with torn clothes and scuffed shoes, nicks and cuts and bruises. It is from contact with the cruelty apparatus that you find yourself in this dilemma. How can one through violence suspend the cruelty? Ok, how can one through passive ignorance dodge down an alley to diminish the sense of riot building in the main square. White flight is what it was called in the 60's and 70's. Divorce drove the shards of broken marriages back into the crowded spaces of a easier spin. Now who leads the way out of the moral distress? Someone politico/philsophical/psyschological would so depict a soft rain hitting the warm street and running off the curb into the gutter.
We always are transending our past, trying to rise above repitition. I know this feeling you describe. I really liked your alpha version! I also think I see syndroidian influences in all the pieces, nes pa? I mean that in only the most positive of ways dear, you know that. I know I always draw my sources from all over. A wonderful cohesive project dear, ideas, words, pictures as one!
art,has always been for me pure emotion,this vision does what all great art does to me,leaves me speechless!
Bravo Meli! Very excellent expression of what it's like going through fear and depression! You are a very strong person in there :) Part of the reason is you have love for yourself, and that is very important. I love the way you did this image,it is Brilliant! V
"I'd rather pass today like corpse in my own bed..." great words, but you got the spirit going in this to "fight, fight, fight"... like a young filly in your boots & hats, all you need now are your 6shooters by your sides & you can face your greatest fears... luv this in the layers & texture, so expressive, shows another side of you, tough & fun, sieze the day & make it yours! :] muuuuah!
Wonderfull creative work much diffirent emotions :-) Great job V for the artist
Oh to be free of days like these hugs Perfectly apt at the moment my darling, and by my latest email to you I know you can guess why I'm relating so well. Thank you so much for creating and sharing as always hugs xxx
Riflessioni, momenti e pensieri colti solo da chi puavere una grande sensibilitartistica ed emotiva. Excellent
~~Meli The Image..The Poem, Gave Me Something To Think About Such As My Life...Your Expressive Presentation Hit Me Where It Matters. Thankyou For My Path!!!Hugs Twice Over~~~normy