So sorry to be getting out this a little bit late...but I guess late beats better than nothing at all............... I hope each and everyone of you all had a Merry Christmas...Mine was good..........friends and family dropped by.......got lots of goodies.....and nice gifts as well............ Had my Pet Scan done Dec19th....They always take your sugar count before the test and mine had dropped down to 50...made me drink a tube of sugary stuff and it wasn't too bad.........by the time of the test they re took it and it was up to 125...they all most called it off and begged me to go to ER and get on the pain pump and get fluids as I had been sick the week before...They said I was probably dehydrated........and they told the chemo nurses...and I told them I was going home and if I got sick would come back to ER that night.........so far so good..Bruce my son is a borderline diabetic and he has been checking it for me.........been in 125 to 135 so that is passable..... Went to Dr today for regular check up and med refills and I knew he would have the Pet Scan results...he walked in the door and said "Susan the news isn't good.........you have a new spot in the center of your chest.....it is really lit up by that comment I have no idea....and also one on your right side of your rib cage"...I lost it in his office cried like a baby...He said I would have to talk to my Oncologist the 23rd when I saw him for my check up...I don't think I am strong enough to take chemo............if I I just have a gut feeling I wouldn't last long if I took the chemo...........but maybe there can be an alternative,so need less to say the test was done Dec 19th so 2012 was not a good year for us....death wise with family and friends...and now my health.....I have been sleeping a lot during the day and told this to my Dr...he said if I needed to sleep go ahead and sleep........so I do.......I really take advantage of it too... I am just wondering if they are still going to try and treat the new nodules with another cancer pill, and if they want to find out if its cancer they will have to do a biopsy and last time I liked not to have pulled out of it..this time I will be an inpatient and anesthesia no outpatient for me again...........not after the last fiasco.. On the bright side.........I am going to get a different car........yeah....I hate to see the Clamplettmobile gone but need a new car...the same guy that sold me Clamplettmobile is selling me this one ...he wants $700 dollars...and my car to boot...and mine was ready to go to by by car heaven soon............I had 400 left from check..and one of Danny's buddies is loaning me $300 dollars to make up the difference...I busted out in a cry.............need to go Sun and withdraw 300 from my savings...this will leave me $25 dollars to get by on for the month...........so surely the church I go too will help loan me money for food.....it's a 96 Maroon Chevy Lumina....looks like hail dents on the drivers side..........and Bruce test drove ir today............said it drives like a dream...so will be really happy to get a car with a window and a heater..........so that is my news for now..just wanted to wait and post something when I knew the outcome...............will post again the 23rd when I see the Oncologist if I can find something worthy to upload........ Ass usual all work done in PSP 9....had this one saved in Photobucket...........forget what all I did do for the image so please forgive me...been rather an upsetting day..........except getting the $300 to help go toward getting the car Monday I added borders.......and text.......and just digifiddled around... Any comment is most appreciated.....and to those of you who favorite this thank you as welll Let's hope 2013 will be a better year for all of us than 2012 was...and forgive me for rambling and writing a novel LOL....... Again thanks to you all' Love n hugs Your sis Susan~