Down But Reasoning by gallimel
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*You think I am down...
well maybe I am, but only
cos my body needs its time
to raise up again...
I might seem calm,
while obeyin you...
I might seem nice,
while smiling at you...
But I feel rage towards you all,
I feel you're stealing my forces full.
It's gonna end,
cos my mind thinks:
no longer more
I'll fill your dreams.
You gotta do what helps yourself:
my choice is freedom,
a brand new set
of duties and rights
you never cared of
too taken in makin me do
your jobs and plots.
I might look down,
but I do reason well:
after this month,
you'll think of me.
With regret.
*
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Picture taken with Zeiss Ikon Netter (an old vertical camera property of my father) lights artificial from three lamps, old film (from there the dusting). Scanned with Epson Stylus CX 3200, normal settings.
No postwork. The picture is of that dimension due to a scissor's cut :).
Model of course is me.
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I took a long series of pictures with me posing and with that old camera for a request Black_ST did to me months ago to pose for him.
I gave him 9 shots, and some more I will, but I kept for myself of course the majority of the session (two days.. it was long.)
This one was perfect to explain you all the way I feel lately. I am never around due to insane working.. but it's gonna end. As New year starts, I will take 6 months off from my work as University Researcher. Basically cos I don't stand the Milan's crew there around me.Which makes me do things I was never hired for doing.
In the 6 months off i'll start a new career as administrative responsible of an important society round me.. and maybe I will finally get my second Master degree (in Psychology) and finish to write my book of tales for children, and searchin an editor for it ;)
So don't worry for me in case you were. And read the poem.. it explains much.
Hope you enjoy :)
PS: Out from this session in grey-blue will be taken the picture I am gonna use for the gift of Xmas to some of you dears :) expect it in parcel at your houses :) Hugs again :)
Comments (161)
Love the aspect ratio, good times, good times. I really like the tapestry in the back, and how it lends to the weight of the character. Later later.
Oh Meli sweety!! U say not to worry but it's kinda hard after reading this! :( U really seem to have more than enough and those words are so strange in ur mouth! I had no idea it was so bad for u at work... :( Duno what to say...other than u look absolutely gorgeous on this shot!! I'd love to have some of those pics myself...plz, pretty plz??! wink and try to make something with them that would make u smile... Love ya sweety-pie...
Sounds like the box is getting too small for you, Meli! If you can conceive and believe, you can achieve! Go for it! :)
WOW, you are a beautiful and classic model. This is very, very impressive!! And rest (from the insanity that surrounds us) is always a good thing.
beautiful shot..love the texturing
Meli, yes it has been a wee bit. I know these feelings, all of them, primitive almost, loss of control too. Out of sinc with others personas. I am happy and have successfully avoided another year of Christmas stress because I now have a new job away from retail hell. Your portrait here is music to my eyes and I love your regal pose that seems so unlike your insides. Sorry your 3 month stint turned into longer and you soon will be able to do the things most important to you. Peace dear. Hugs.
Jesus Christ, You are beautifull like a swan so pure, complete, and full of grace.
You are one of the most wonderful woman i've never seen Meli...And your words touch me a lot...
fabulous shot, and beauty lady.... meli, you are too beautifull,,hugs
this pic looks as an old poster with the latest miss "sixty" (or may be sixteen...). The attitde is well completed by the drawing that looks a little bit as some black thoughts
great pose and pict....wow!
Wonderful self-portrait. Things will go better!! Un abbraccio forte :)
Gorgeous...that is all I can say. A beautiful pose with excellent composition.
Eccellente fotografia Meli!!! Molto bello effecto di immagine granulosa!!!
I think you could take the most expensive digital, with the best photo editing software... and arrive at a more intriguing piece. Your words reveal an innter turmoil that hopefully will soon be resolved. Very powerful piece.
Stunning photo Meli gosh your gorgeous seriously this is really wonderful did one gorgeous job on it *V
maybe down - but not out! you look stunning my love
Oh, sembri una dea in meditazione, cossolenne e ieratica. Sei sempre bellissima! Un abbraccio da Angelo "Calanthe".
When the goin gets tough the tough get goin. Cool pose Meli. All I can say is go one day at a time.
INCREDIBILE L'EFFETO CHE DA LA PHACK SUL MURO BIANCO E LA FOTO REALE CHE IN PARTE SEMBRA DISEGNATA PIU CHE FOTOGRAFATA IN UNA POSA COMMENTATIVA MA PROVOCANTE IL CENTRO DI FISIONE DI QUESTO LAVORO E L'INTESITA DELLE FIGURE IN CAMPO CHE RICHIAMA L'ATTENZIONE AD OSSERVARE UN MESSAGGIO NASCOSTO EXCELLENT ARTWORK VVV*V SUPER COMPLIMENTS *BY
Wonderful shot my dear-your soo beautiful and remember your strong,powerful,young and such a wonderful artist :) HUGS.*********
Follow your bliss dear. Now is the only moment you have and let it be a good one. Lets say: Today is a gift that's why we call it the (a) Present. Hope the best for you! O great shot and words btw ;~)
Good luck to you, my friend ... the worst kind of parasites steal your time - I'm so glad you're determined to take it back.
Time to experience, to live your dreams ... freedom? You will make it :) However ... I know you will make it and I wish you all the best for your Master degree, your book and whatever else you want to realize ... hugs :)
Huh it seems you really feel the same like I at the moment you just look better than I ;-) mel you will make your way, time to renew energies, time for new horizons time
Very nice pose! You're beautiful! Take good care of yourself and hold on to your own needs and dreams. Sometimes another road has to be taken... I wish you all the luck of the world. Always and too much stress is not good... kissssss Sil
A very interesting image. My first thought was - postwork. Now I know that you just used old equipment - one should never get rid of such things. The words acompanying your photo fit very well into my office situation. Thank you for sharing...
Excellent photo !
this shot captures so much and truly reinforces the mood you convey of your situation, i can only imagine how it must be but i do wish the best for your transition! would love to read your book once complete :)) big hugs and kisses dear :)(:
You are truly a looker,Beautiful.