Well, it's 2008 now and I still can't believe it. Seems like yesterday that I was turning 16. Nothing much has really changed, other than the fact that I'm a lot happier and a lot more grown up now, I think. I still need a "real job." They're hard to find; I'm feeling guilty and tired of relying on people, and I'm sure they're not exactly pleased with it either. Right now things seem stuck...as if moving would cause further damage. Makes me wonder if there's anything I can do to really help this situation, or those around me, or even anything at all. All of my friends are in the same place I am: no job, or a dead-end job with crappy pay, working themselves to death. And I wonder, for what? Because it's just what's expected? I guess I don't see the point of expecting someone to bust their ass for minimum wage so they can live a picket fence life and send their kids to a good college, and then retire. And then by the time you retire, you're too old or sick or just plain tired to do the things you never had a chance to do because you were busting your ass at a crappy job so you could retire. It makes no sense to me. I don't know. Maybe I just don't get the "big picture" like everyone else does. Everyone is at that free fall point; you've got nowhere else to go but down. So you resign yourself to falling - to where, you haven't the slightest notion - and just hope that things work themselves out. I don't want to free fall anymore. I'm not content with it, I need a change. I need someone to give me a chance, because I know if that chance came around, I'd make it. It's just the type of person I am - there's no quitting allowed. I just wish it wasn't so far out of reach. *sigh* Does anyone else out there feel the same way I do? ~*~ Thanks for viewing, comments welcome as always.