Refelection of Self by yomah
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Description
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I open my eyes, but it still feels like a dream
This cold bathroom floor, now is like home to me
I stumble to the mirror, and automatically start to clean
But my body's scorned with marks, that say "these aren't the last lines that I'll see.."
It's a battle field of memories, that just won't go away, for me....
This world has tied me down, and the knot keeps tightening
Cause I'm just a puppet, dangling from this breaking string
So please cut this string, attached to my wrists
Buried in my shaking palm, I hold this evil in my fist
But maybe this time I'll turn, this blade the other way
And roll up my sleeves to let the scars show my mistakes
I can't breath, I'm in need, where's my crimson savior?
No I won't crawl back just to bleed,
Forgive me again, I promise I'll stay clean....
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...I relive my pain, with every scar.
I am tired.
y
Comments (10)
I'm so sorry you're hurting so much inside
so am i.
Yo, your words are so interesting. You have Self-awareness, needed to reflect on your exisence. You have said you feel numb, you feel nothing, and you cut to prove you exist. I see a transition going on in you. I think as your Self-awareness increases, you will know you exist; you will find empowerment to transcend your pain, because you will know the wonderful person that you are, and move on in your life.
they all have to move not just one/you play the game so well. great art.
yes, great art -- words and images
I had thought these were words of encouragement. Everyone is telling me things will get better in time. I try to focus on others. I take my meds like a good dog. But I still find myself face down on a cold tile floor in puddles of my own blood. This world pulls my strings like a spastic marionette. I want to make the cut. To cut the string that binds my wrists. That binds my mind. That binds my heart. I look at every scar, every mark and remember. I want to be free of burden. I'm sure a lot of well meaning text-book white-shirts will tell they have the solution, 100% money-back guarantee or double my horrors back. Oh well - one more day. y
Your art is so good, its a pity you cant seem to put it to better use and allow it make you feel better about yourself.
Your scars within and without are clearly difficult for some members to empathize with.To emotionally connect to.That is not their lives experience.The victimized child remains and how we deal with it varies.No simple solutions,just exsistence and the light we feel sometimes in a darkness forced on us as children by one in a position of trust and power.This image is extremely reflective of how a child,now adult has been slashed upon the creating potters wheel and rather than shaped and molded into a solid and beautiful creation has been forced down,muted,slashed and emotional disfigured.A beautiful personal expression Yomah.
Yes Seothan, I can relate entirely. I think u hit the nail on the head. Many of us are victimized and we have to change that. As adults we can not be Victims but we have to become Survivors. We have to change our thinking. We have to say I am not a Victim anymore and move forward into my own peace. Being abused is not a joke and it can spiral someone into the throes of death, making them see no reason to live anymore...but this artwork it is good and it represents a way to let out the pain that is healthy. Best wishes on the artwork!
The first cut of childhood is the deepest and we spend the rest of our lives trying not to bleed to death. Your art and words come from within your broken heart and seem to be a deep wound that is trying very hard to heal. CC