I'm still with you by Faemike55 ()
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The last week was pretty bad, not only for America but for me personally. I started sinking into the circle of depression regarding all that was done to me. Losing the bladder, prostate, and transverse lymph nodes hit me hard. It is one thing to talk and joke about the procedure, it is entirely different when it is done. It kinda hit me like a barbed-wire bat. I am going to use Rendo as my means of dealing with this new reality. I hope that I won't lose any friends during my recovery and my discussions thereof. I think it is cheaper than going to a shrink.
So, I ask you all to bear with me as I get a grip on my new reality.
Thank you for your friendship and well wishes. They are greatly appreciated.
Image Comments (18)
eekdog () 7:28PM | Tue, 12 January 2021
You will never loose me as a friend Mike.
I can only imagine what you are going through at this time. Most of us are suffering from depression in different ways. I always use rendo friends and poser to keep me sane. Now me Rod and other poser users just lost our program use. Totally BS of flash player. So I had to spend 106. 00 for a newer version of poser to work again. Will take some time getting it.
mtdana () 8:16PM | Tue, 12 January 2021
Really feel bad for you and I hope these first weeks will pass quickly and your outlook will improve with time. I wouldn't make a good shrink lol but the hailing frequencies are open Mike!
aksirp () 12:46AM | Wed, 13 January 2021
Oh my, it was not your year and next weeks will be pretty hard but the sunshine comes back for you! your fractal looks like a lost soul in the dark, still there and I like this organic art very much!
hashdoc () Online Now! 1:26AM | Wed, 13 January 2021
I really feel bad for you! Using Rendo seems to be a good idea to overcome all this (at least a little bit)! Keep going on!
Davidvantol () 8:31AM | Wed, 13 January 2021
Awesome work and wishing you the best during these trying times.
jendellas () 9:21AM | Wed, 13 January 2021
Beautiful image. I am sure we are all here for you, always good to share. Take care.
bakapo () 11:26AM | Wed, 13 January 2021
I'm here to support you, Mike. Post what you can and what you want. Healing is multi-dimensional. Take care, go easy and hang on.
RodS () 8:37PM | Wed, 13 January 2021
I'm here for you, buddy, until hell freezes over - and beyond. Healing is a long-term process - for us individually, and as a nation as well. One tumor has been removed, and another one will be gone in a week. We all need to heal as one.
Post when you can, take it slow, and we're here for you, buddy! You have my number, bro!
Wonderful flame, BTW! It kind of illustrates the many paths in a full circle.
tetrasnake () 10:30AM | Thu, 14 January 2021
From one Mike to another, you'll always have a friend in me. We've supported each other here at Rendo for 12 years, and I hold that dear. Keep posting, my friend and stay in touch.
daggerwilldo () 11:26PM | Thu, 14 January 2021
You’ve been through a hell of a lot more than the average bear that’s for damn sure. And to start with no you were not going to lose any of the support network you got here. That just isn’t going to happen. If I can make one recommendation though, please do not hesitate to use every support network and every professional that is available to you. You can get through this. If you ever want to talk to somebody that is outside your orbit completely don’t hesitate to contact me. I have no special skill or knowledge but I do have empathy and I know how to listen.
A_Sunbeam () 12:57AM | Sat, 16 January 2021
Splendid fractal! Keep your chin up - you've a host of friends here willing to listen.
Radar_rad-dude () 8:01PM | Mon, 18 January 2021
I'm keeping sending positive vibrations your way, Mike! As many as I possibly can! Praying for you to get back to a more enjoyable form of life! Take care, buddy! We all love you here! Best and sincere regards, Radar_rad-dude.
Richardphotos () Online Now! 10:06PM | Mon, 18 January 2021
really sad to hear Mike about what they removed. I really hope that you recover as much as possible. very good fractal
anahata.c () 12:09AM | Sat, 23 January 2021
one of my regrets of being absent here is that I haven't left a comment in your gallery since you returned. I've seen and read everything of yours though, and I'm very sorry for all you've had to go through, incl the loss of your bladder, prostate and transverse lymph nodes. You must be in mourning, Mike; I mean real mourning. You have to mourn your losses. If anyone here has the inner fiber to come through this, I believe it's you, I truly feel that. But I know it must be very trying and painful, and you deserve all the support you can get. I hope you can return to the flying dancer inside you, your flights and your joy, your great fancy and humor, and your sense of deep kindness and love. I hope you can return to all that, piece by piece, along with the love of the many who love you. I meditate for you (which is like prayer for me) and wish you all the best in the world.
Your image is all light and swirl, it's jewel-like. And your dancing fae (your most recent, as of this writing) is beautiful and inspired too...one of these days I'll get back and comment on more. But for now, all my very best wishes, you have a right to be exhausted and sad, and I wish you all the light in the the world, as the antidote. There's gotta be a special star for you...may it shine on you always and warm and light up your way...
LyleAryn () 9:15PM | Tue, 26 January 2021
Hey, my friend. Any time you need to reach out, I'm here. And I don't sleep much.
Been fighting that same spiral (though for different reasons.) No gripe you make will push me away. I promise.