Barbara Joyce by sackrat ()
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This is the first time I have ever done a nude. I purchased the "Petie" texture by ExprssnImg, and was struck by how much it looked like someone I once knew. I began playing around with the morphs and different hair,........then I used Kozaburo's "Long Hair Evolution" and I began to cry. It bore an uncanny resemblence to the only woman I have ever been madly, truly in love with. Her name was Barbara, "Barbie" for short,.......We met just after thanksgiving in 1977 at a friends party, she was 18. She did not live to see her 21st birthday. This was a definite case of love at first sight. She was intelligent, funny and loving. We talked for 5 hours that night, we went on a date the next night and became very fast friends and lovers. She was a beautiful woman, with long dark reddish brown hair, she rarely wore any makeup. At any rate, as I have said,......I have loved others but not as I loved Barbie,....this was a smoldering passion that can never be fully extiguished. I dreamed of her last night,......I awoke with a feeling of profound sadness, so I decided to atempt an image of her. This is very close to what she looked like. Many times I would catch her coming out of a shower and she would try to cover herself in just this manner. Even though we had been lovers for quite awhile, she was very shy or modest and did not like to be seen in the open unclothed. I found it very sweet and endearing. Barbie was murdered on July 19th 1980,......she was just 20 years old, she was a victim of gun violence. I still miss her very, very much. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her. Those here that know me, know I'm not given to sentimentalism or emotionalism, yet I feel compelled to write this narative so that you might understand the motivation behind this image. My God,......if you have someone in your life that you truly, deeply love, live everyday with them like it is your last. Savor every moment, every second, tell them that you love them. OK,...enough,.....Bryce 6, "Petie" by ExprssnImg, "Long Hair Evo" by Kozaburo, postwork in PS7. I love you Barbara, I have faith that I will see you again someday on the other side. I sincerly hope I have not offended anyone with this image or outpouring of emotion. Thanks for your attention and indulgence.
Image Comments (12)
kjer_99 () 10:10AM | Sun, 26 November 2006
As one who has lost two family members to violence, you have my deepest empathy. It is a beautiful image and a loving tribute to your loved one, accompanied by very wise words, indeed. The plains Native Americans used to say, "Today is a good day to die." They weren't morbid; it was in the sense of "One never knows when." Because we don't, we should endeavour to savour each day as if it were our last--or with our loved ones. As for beloved who have proceeded us in death, we should keep their memories in our hearts, remembering them in the good times, forgiving them for the failures. But not too much, not all the time. While we live, let us keep most of our thoughts upon the living. With them, we still have a chance to "do it right." I truly am sorry for your very great loss.
watifeye () 7:49AM | Mon, 27 November 2006
I am so sorry and truly understand your heartfelt emotion by the loss of one so Dear to you. The loss of my Dear Wife through terminal illness is something I will never get over as she was the one and only girl that I really loved in my whole life. However, the pleasent memories you have of your loved one will hopefully help you to go forward in life. My very best and sincere wishes to you my friend. Your picture is excellent and so beautiful. A wonderful tribute.
Sapphyre_net () 1:00PM | Tue, 28 November 2006
I love the expression of shyness in this figure... and sympathize with you on the loss. Be thankful you had the time with her that you did have. Every day is precious. May God bless you always.
RBlue () 12:41PM | Sun, 25 February 2007
Extremely nice sentiment. What a tragic loss! A truly wonderful tribute. Your image: Close to photographic render quality. But the artist in me must say: She could do with better posing of her hands. I know Poser is difficult (at best) to do realistic posing but try "Use Limits" and try the Curve editor to better tweak your actor's poses. You'll be pleased with the outcome!