.: A Last Glass Of Wine :. by Rainbowgirl ()
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Almost 3 years ago I joined Renderosity. There are 377 pics in my gallery plus about 50 I deleted for various reasons. Mostly because I couldn't stand them any more. It's been a long way from starting with stupid little pin-ups to the sudden discovery that I really could do what I like most - scenes with more than one character. Scenes in streets, in bars, in homes. This intriguing discovery - intriguing for me - happened to coincide with the release of Victoria 4 and with this release my best time began. Most of my scenes where some kind of 'art in a niche' (although I do not consider my poserplays as art), taking place in a niche of life unknown to most of you. In the world of gay girls. Girls like me. I really enjoyed doing those little things with the intend to show that we are like all other people, that we are no threat, no enemies. I do not think I had great success this way but nonetheless I enjoyed my journey the virtual kind of this world that I'm a part of in real life.
I still did some pin-ups and had the odd foray into fantasy and sci fi but, again for me, these were not important. My heart was with the girls.
I made a lot of friends and even more acquaintances on this way. People who became important to me. People I am grateful to for their help, their friendship, their love they showed to me. Some I have lost on the way. Just like in real life. Some I may have offended and I do apologise to them. I never meant to offend anybody.
After all this time I have now to realise that I somehow lost my touch for impact, lost my grip of Poser as a tool. When you look at my uploads of the previous three months or so, you will see what I mean. I'm very sorry that happened but it's undeniable.
In the end I came to the conclusion of taking a leave of absence from Poser, from Renderosity, from the galleries. Indefinetely. It may be a week, a month, a year... I do not know. Perhaps I won't come back at all though I doubt it.
I raise my glass to you.