In Memory of Shana
July 24, 2013 2:09 am
It is with great sadness that we share the news that longtime Renderosity member and vendor, Shana, passed away on Saturday, July 13, 2013.
From her home in the South of Portugal, Shana had been working as a freelance artist, honing her digital art skills for more than twelve years since she first started with coloring her own drawings in Photoshop.
Shana became a member of Renderosity in the beginning of 2005, and shortly thereafter became a vendor here. As evidence of her incredible talent, Shana quickly became a top vendor and received a number of Vendor of the Month awards. Here on Renderosity, Shana forged many friendships, learning from others and willingly sharing her own advice and knowledge as well.
A lover of books, movies, video games, and a self-proclaimed
shop-a-holic, she enjoyed life to the fullest, and believed in her
own advice for others: "...just do what you love and be
happy!" An inspiring artist who gave so much of herself,
Shana will be truly missed. Long time collaborative vendor,
outoftouch, says, "It’s the saddest news that has ever arrived
in my mail account...It makes me happy that Shana stays in this
community in a very special way.” "
“When we first received the notice from Shana’s boyfriend, we had hoped it was just a horrible hoax,” says Marketplace Manager, Stacey Granstaff, “we just didn’t want to believe this could be true. We are all deeply saddened and we will miss her. She was so kind and enjoyable to work with.”
Marketplace Admin, JennBlake says, "Shana was one of the sweetest people I have had the honor of meeting here at Renderosity. When I first started in 3D as a hobby she was one of the first vendors I contacted to ask questions about lighting and render settings. She was always very willing to give out tips and tricks. She never had a bad word about anyone. She was a girl after my own heart with the pink textures (she would giggle if she heard me say that). Every time a really great outfit came out I would wait for her add-on for it because I knew there would be a pink one. And I always wrote to thank her for it. She never failed to reply with, ‘I knew you would love it!’ She was a joy to buy from as a buyer before I was lucky enough to be an Admin here. And as an admin, she was a pleasure to work with. I will miss her, and her work here at Renderosity very much."
Messages from her parents and boyfriend are below.
From Shana's parents:
To our dear and beloved Shana, who so suddenly has left us, we will remember your smile, your sweetness, your honesty, your companionship and how much you helped us. We will forever be grateful.
We will also remember the dedication she had to her work, what she loved to do. With these simple but meaningful words, we want everyone who worked with her and those who helped her, we want you all to be certain that she will always be in our hearts. We hope that just like us, each and every one of you will keep not only the seeds of what she created alive, but also the memory of the amazing human being who now has gone up to heaven, from where she will look out and protect all of us.
From Shana's partner, Nuno:
My name is Nuno, I am Shana's boyfriend and longtime partner
in more ways than one. You're hearing from me now for the worst
reason possible, I'm completely heartbroken, this has been the
worst week of my life, and I doubt it will get better anytime
Most of you knew her as a vendor here, you've known her for years, what you didn't know was that a lot of what she did here was with me by her side. I helped her as much as I could over the years in a lot of the work she did. So even if you don't know me, I do know a lot of you already. There's too many of you to mention, but I wrote a lot of e-mails and sitemails to all of you for my girl because she thought I wrote better English than her. I'm not here to take credit for anything. If it wasn't for her I wouldn't be here right now. Ever since I got to know her, she literally changed my life. She was just amazing that way. I can say without any doubt in my mind that if she hadn't come into my life, I would not be here right now. I wouldn't be who I am today, she's the best thing that ever happened to me. I will forever be grateful to have spent these years with her.
I don't even know what to say, what to do or where to start. All I keep thinking is that she didn't deserve this, it shouldn't have happened, it was way too soon. There was so much that was left to say, so much that we didn't get to do, so many dreams and wishes she had that never got to be fulfilled, and that's not fair. If there's one person in the world I'm completely sure deserved better, it was her. She went through a lot over the years, most of you don't know anything about her illness because she didn't complain. She only talked with me and few people in her family. She could have played the pity card, but she never did, she didn't want to, she didn't need to. It makes me completely sick to hear anyone complain about anything bad they think they have, how unfair life is to them and how things didn't turn out the way they think they deserved. People say these things without knowing how bad it can actually be, without having any idea what actually hurts. Unfortunately she knew, she went through all of it and still came out smiling. I'm not as good as her and never will be, she had her problems and still helped people around her. She was the bravest, sweetest girl I'll ever know. I wish I could have done more. I really did try my best to make her happy and even if I know and truly believe that at least for a few moments I did make her happy, somehow that doesn't seem like enough, she just deserved better, she deserved more.
I will remember her forever, how beautiful she is, how sweet she was, how amazing it was to be with her, how much fun we had, I'll never forget and will always treasure her memory forever. I learned so much about life just by being close to her, about the actual important things we all one day hope to have, things I never thought I would one day have, things I never imagined would happen to me, they all did, all because of her. As bad as it hurts right now, as much as I don't know how or when this pain will go away, as much as I just want to run away and hide, as unfair as I think all of this is, how unfair it is that I will never get to be with her again, see her again, touch her, kiss her...as sad as that makes me....I'm still happy that at least I got to be with her, even if it was just for a few years. I love her, she's my girl, she always will be.
Something else I need mention, even though I'm not ready for it yet, I do plan on eventually continuing what we did. This time alone but with her always in my heart, always thinking of her, this was what we did, this is what she liked, it was on Renderosity that we managed to make some of her wishes come true. It was because of this website, other support of other vendors, and all the purchases you all have made. I want everyone to know how thankful she was. She always wanted to be taken seriously as an artist, make an actual living from it, and she got to do that. It doesn't matter if I helped or not, she made it happen for herself. She worked for it. I know she was thankful to everyone who helped her, as I am. I don't know when, but I do plan on continuing sometime. Hopefully, also with those who worked with her. It's what she wanted me to do, it's what her parents want me to do. .I want her username to live on, I don't want anyone to ever forget her, that's the only thing I can do for her now.
Renderosity has kindly agreed to keep the Shana username and store active (thank you!). Just nothing new will be added from her. I will added to her products to take care of them, so contact me now as ShanasSoulmate if you have any support questions. ShanasSoulmate seems appropriate, since we both thought we were made for each other. No one knows me as she did, and no will ever know her as I did). Shana, if you're watching over me now, please know how proud I am of you and how much I'll always miss you. I truly hope one day I'll get to see you again fofa, I love you!
Thank you everyone,
You'll hear from me again,
Please join with us in sending condolences to Shana's family and friends. She will be greatly missed.
~The Renderosity Staff and Community
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She will be greatly missed. As a fellow texture artist/vendor I had much respect for her "style" and good taste. Although we are completely different, I always enjoyed looking at her new products, using her designs in my art, and enjoying her promotional images. She will live on, and will not be forgotten. Very sad indeed. Love and thoughts to Nuno & her family.
I'm very sorry for your loss I do know that the pain never goes away but it does get better, at some point they move on and you wake one day and decide to move on and live a full and happy life, right after death its hard to do because of the memories, I believe that once you've reached the end of every moment you spent with that person is viewed, accepted as wonderful (even the bad ones) you get a sence of peace that settles over your soul and you just know at that moment that its time, but the pain and agony of waiting for that moment can be horrid and time consuming, but please keep in mind and heart that it will happen, but you'll also never forget the amazing person and any and everyone you meet and will become associated with from now on will know, have a feeling that you carry someone dear to you in your heart and that two are met well instead of just one hugs n slobbers Dana/MagicWeaver
Such sad news about such a beautiful and talented soul. I have adored Shana's work for years and I will miss how her products light up the marketplace and shine creativity and inspiration. God bless you sweety...and to those who loved her God be with you during this difficult time.
Much too early you had to go from us. Why? We will miss you so! It is hard to find any words to say, it came all of a sudden and from the deepest of our hearts we want to speak out our dearest sympathy and send out love to Nuno and Shana's family! As someone who worked closely with her for quite a long time I will always remember her beautiful and kind person, the very talented artist and surely an inspiration for anyone. She leaves us with her beautiful art that will remain. I'm thankful that we all had the occasion to meet a fantastic person like you, you will stay in our hearts! Rest in peace.
Although I never got to know Shana, I always admired her work and artistry. When I read the sad news I was deeply shocked and saddened. I just couldn't believe what I was reading. I wish to express my sincerest condolences to her family, friends and dearest loved ones. I am so sorry for your loss. God Bless you all. Trevor (scooby37)
A terrible tragedy, and yes, so very unfair. Condolences to Shana's parents and to her dear and loving Nuno, stay close and help each other as only those closests to her can help each other. And condolences to outoftouch who is certainly hurting also from this loss. This little community will miss her and also remember her, and she will continue to inspire and to help others to express themselves.
My deepest condolences to Shana's family and friends and to her soul mate, Nuno. I'm so very sorry for your loss. I never knew her, but I have bought a few of her texture sets over the years. Thank you to Renderosity for keeping her store open and preserving her memory. Blessings and love.