pendy...thank you soooo much. i think this is where i have been falling down: Talk to your muse...you've lost contact and she's pissed because you haven't paid enough attention to her. until shortly after 9-11 i worked for myself, by myself. after 9-11 i joined up with a friend, and, now, i must daily go to an office. i go to an office that is in a building that has been being remodelled since before i moved in. and, like everyone else, i worry about making money. this economy isn't too swell...and war worries don't make it any better. i work hard to make it on my own, without a check from someone. and, sometimes, well, not lately, thank goodness...but, in the past, i have been pretty frightened. the only reason that i am not still frightened is that i have proven to myself that i can "go figger" enough to get me by. that feels very good. i think my attention has been very divided. i must survive. i'd like to prosper...and, maybe, each evening, when i get home...i don't have a whole lot of "me" left for creativity. still, i don't really envy those among us who can stay home and upload their 3 render quota, each day. thanks for the pep talk....i took your advice...and, finally really PLAYED with my christmas presents. i already was in love with v3...but, wow...that bombshell hair...omg...such possibilities. and, yes, now i do have a render on my mind. thanks, so much Poppi...who has been waaay too serious ;*)