I started to feel slightly better, and I overdid my food prep stuff, and
now I am quite laid up with my entire back muscles being locked up
painfully tight. :( I am using meds and ice... this is another part of FM
....but depressing to be sure. Yes this is a dark piece...sorry, it's the
way I feel these days....
Outside the Box
I can handle all the grown up things, but still inside I cry,
My inner self feels only sadness for all my years gone by,
Of standing alone against a world that doesn't understand,
My complex health, what keeping my body alive demands.
The world insists all our needs fit into a nice tidy little box,
All required to be alike, not even be one tiny bit unorthodox.
I long to feel the pride I should for each thing that I do achieve,
But as each battle is done and past, I only feel a little relieved.
I long for a supportive partner to help carry my heavy load,
Someone to lend an arm as I walk down this difficult road,
But it seems I'll stand alone for the rest of my years until I leave,
My truth be told, I feel life is horrendous work, I can only grieve.
PS: I seem to have a coping mechanism going on...I am SO
focused in the present moment, in the face of so much weighing
on me... and I wrote:
You know how people say "don't sweat the small things" ?
Well it's the tiny GOOD things that each day might bring,
That assist when life's BIG bad crap continues to persist.
These days, I SO much appreciate those tiny little gifts,
That bring a slight sense of relief, a scant smile to my lips.
My V4 morph, one of Godin's girls, Fabi's lights, pose by me.
Path 8. sorry hurt too much to do more credits.
Feb 17, 2013 11:38:28 amby JaneEden Homepage »
You illustrated how you feel here very well Lyne, so sorry you are having such a real bad time just now, it will pass and you will feel some relief soon my friend. I do understand what you go through as you well know, but you have such a remarkable way of putting just how you feel into poetry and art, very well done for that. gentle hugs Jane xx
Feb 17, 2013 1:47:19 pmby kjer_99 Homepage »
Sorry that I've been away so long. I seem to be in one of those the-faster-I-go-the-further-I-get-behind phases of my life. I have missed seeing what you've been up to.
You have blended extremely well the model and the photo background. Excellent!
Both your poem and your additional comment about the little good things are very perceptive--and the poem poignant. Thought the title and concept of the poem was very apt.
I hope that your cyber friends comments are some of those GOOD little events that help you push on.
Feb 20, 2013 2:02:57 pmby BountifulKnight Homepage »
Sorry to be so late on this. Yes, it is good to take joy in the small good things and to not focus on the small bad things. Your artwork is lovely, sweet and somber. It's like she's just resting a moment and looking and listening to what's around her to be sure of where she is and that all around her is ok. For her and you, I hope too that all is ok.
Feb 21, 2013 1:24:59 amby HADCANCER Homepage »
Looks light and airy to me. Looks like the dog got out again...smile I think it is great. I think you are going to be just fine. Take from someone who is really on a downward spiral. I lost my interest in art and life, so for you there is hope. Have appointment to get bipolar meds again.