I'd like to wish you all a very Merry Christmas or whatever you celebrate and Happy Holidays...
For my friends...
It's been...an interesting two years. Once upon a time I defined myself by what I thought I was...
I was a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother, a best friend, a homeowner...
Then these last two years ripped away and destroyed all those shields, all those layers. It's making me redefine who and what I think I am. For now? I don't know...it's still a road of discovery. I do know that I can no longer define what and who I am by what I am to someone else, unless it's a friend.
Without my friends here, I don't think I would have been able to withstand the fury of the gods and what the earthquakes that rocked my life wrought. I don't know what happens next. I'm no longer comfortable in the illusion of safety or what I think I am or will be doing even as far away as tomorrow. I do know that for today, I am still standing, and that's all I can guarantee. But for today? That's good enough.
To Lynn, Fabiana, Andy, Amy, Meike and Laura...thank you. Without you I would have curled up into a fetal position and disappeared like all those before me. You were my touchstones and my rocks...and for that I will be forever grateful.
Happy Holidays, everyone. Keep your hearts and loves safe and let them know every single day that you love them.
Production Creditsfabiana - A Celtic Delight
gypsyangel - Shiloh V4
Dec 25, 2011 7:12:53 pmby julesart Online Now! Homepage »
This brought tears to my eyes as I can so relate to this. You have pushed a button in a good way. Friends are important and your list here is a fantastic one. I to am close to Fabiana and know what her friendship really entails and what it means. Your words hold truth and wisdom, life has changed dramatically for so many of us but we must stay focused, set our priorities in order and breathe. I love this image you have created here. Her outfit is beautiful and even though it's snowing she looks comfortable and warm. Thank you for sharing this image and your thoughts. Hugz
Dec 25, 2011 7:39:44 pmby SaintFox Online Now! Homepage »
Like I already said: It's a great pity to me that thousands of miles lie between us - because you can be sure that otherwise you would have now be here with us and not on your own. I did not spend a single day during the last weeks where we had a really good time without thinking of you and wishing that I could give a part of this hapiness to you. I am not good in making big words and statements in english - so you can take literally what I wrote about thinking of you.
Dec 26, 2011 8:35:51 amby fabiana Homepage »
You already know what I think, what I feel and what I wish, each day.
So well... again and again, remember the mom's list of things to do. One at time, but each day you are alive... the lonely smile, the dance... just small details for move the blood inside and feel the life still running.
I have the bottle there, very visible in the shelf... you just have to drop a line and tell me the hour, so I can put it in the fridge for the required time :)