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2013

May

8:42 pm

Reinvention of Reinvention?
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After a lot of difficulty in the working world, I've come to the realization that in order for me to be truly successful, I have to create stuff that's wholly my own and get it known in the real world. I have to be an entrepreneur of sorts.

Actually, I've always known this. However, there's this constant tug of war between my desire for better things and the daily grind. The daily grind has been winning as of late.

I've got to get back to doing my so-called 3D "art." I've got to get Shion and company back into my consciousness so I can start writing better. I've got to make the time and pull out some energy that I haven't discovered yet.

Easier said than done, perhaps. But my current situation is taking a toll. How much more could I lose at this point, anyway?

2013

Apr

12:19 pm

Hiatus
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I've been inactive for some time due to work, lack of time and inspiration.

On hiatus. Will return soon.

2013

Jan

7:12 pm

This Internet Sometimes...
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...can be a real PITA. Or maybe it's just my paranoia when it comes to being hit with another virus attack. Last Thursday (1/17) I saw this ms_webcheckmonitor window come up right after I cancelled Norton from doing background tasks. After doing scans in Safe Mode (came clean) and some digging, I discovered that window to be part of webcheck.dll (some legacy module for Active Desktop and synchronizing offline browsing, among other things; you can Google for other pages that mention it).

I don't know why after almost five years of having this laptop (and some four years after getting hit with that backdoor virus) I would see this window. And yet, after that first instance, I haven't seen it again. Today I unregistered webcheck.dll from the system, and re-registered it after thinking I might do more harm than good.

It's probably yet another sign that I need to get this thing replaced. If I had to have Geek Squad take a look at the laptop, it would be $200. I already paid $200 to them once already, and I ended up reinstalling the laptop on my own anyway. It would have been a total of $400 over five years for maintenance. I'm better off with a new system.

All of this was cutting into my working on new art, and I STILL don't feel I have enough time. :X

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Saturday I was in a cab heading for work when I saw this fare list on the seat. It mentioned $50.00 for vomit cleanup.

...

It sounds like something out of a Seinfeld episode, but the cab driver says it happens. I suppose being in River North/Old Town with plenty of bars that should be expected...

2012

Nov

5:57 am

Election Day 2012
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Still feeling like Charlie Brown.

Today's Election Day in the US, and unlike four years ago I'm not feeling all that hopeful about things.

I realize now that Rome wasn't built in a day, and "change" is going to take a heck of a lot longer.

And yet, I'm still going to vote today. So should you.

2012

Oct

11:02 pm

In Search of: Peace of Mind?
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(Reposting most of a journal entry from DeviantART)

Haven't made a decent journal entry in a while. Unfortunately, I'm still in the dumps about life in general.

Maybe it's because I'm getting older. Maybe it's because this economy isn't recovering fast enough (three years since the 2008 recession). Maybe because my so-called "art" isn't getting much traction. Maybe it's because of my current job. More likely it's all of the above.

I called myself reading How to Stop Worrying and Start Living by Dale Carnegie, but a lot of it still hasn't sunk in yet. (However, I only borrowed it once from the library. I plan on buying it soon.)

As for one situation in particular: instead of trying to change my outlook on it, it would be better for me to just cash in my chips and do something else. I think it's too late for me to try and change how I feel about it. It's pretty much done.

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As for my art, I'm trying to get one particular AWOL character back into it. I'm not naming names, but she's been gone too long. I'm having issues trying to fit her into the more serious, more sci-fi, and probably less "magical" universe that I'm trying to portray. I don't want her powers to be overpowering to the point that she's considered a Mary Sue. And I'm trying not to copy Star Wars, either (because I want to be original, nothing else).

I don't know how I'm going to do any of it. It's going to take more time and patience than I currently have.